War Within

Entering the world of mass destruction is the unknown. Each individual is only promised one way in and one way out. Which is life when given and death when taken. The time starts from when the bright light hits your eyes from the estranged place called the unknown world and the first breath you take upon entering the passage way of your mothers vulva.

I never knew what story was already written for me. The chaos that was created was given with the expectation to defeat the assigned war. How else can I describe the task? I have fought with blind eyes, swollen limbs, deaf ears, and a broken heart. While the thoughts of mixed emotions and the feeling of torment from the disguised demons torturing you with pain, responsibilities, depression, suicidal thoughts, and specs of unpredictable beginnings and endings.

The loud noise of your own voice screaming for help,but no one can hear you. Your scream has now become immune to your own ear drums. I’m now numb to the echoing of my tone and voice. Most of my life I had that outer body experience of standing and staring at my own body wondering why or how to make the next move on the board game of Chess being as though I am the Queen which is the most powerful piece in the game. I am able to move horizontally, vertically, and diagonally combining the power of the rook and bishop.

Being on the battlefield fighting multiple wars placed me as a nuclear bomb waiting to explode at any given time. I’m now experiencing PTSD from the impact of the bombs being dropped constantly with no warning.

It’s time to recover and unload the heartbreak and the emptiness I have felt for so long. I’m tired of fighting a ongoing war but I will never give up or turn down a fight . The rise of the Phoenix wasn’t born overnight but has risen from the underground of the assigned and unwanted war.

Yours Truly,

Phoenixx_Warrior, Author

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